Saturday, 17 Dec.
Stayed at home the whole day like a geek on the comp!


Sunday, 18 Dec.
Around the late afternoon, went out to town with parents. Bought a couple of stuff from bugis street! A top, a belt and a tube. Splendid shopping if i was able to purchase more stuff.

Didnt ended off the day well.

Yesterday, Monday 19 Dec.
Although these pictures are not in a good condition, they work as a memory for me.




Went out with him today. Had our lunch at Chinatown, the usual place. Headed to Harbour Front and shopped around vivo for quite a few hours. A tiring day.


Today, Tuesday, 20 Dec.
Work is not as tiring as usual. No sales today but just preparation for the Sec One Orientation on Thursday. Worked till 5plus and was deadbeat when i got home.

Hope the following days can get better. Havent got my Christmas gifts ready and im running out of time. Got a really tight schedule and i really need to work things out soon.

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Dear send me home and i really wish i could hug you forever. Wasnt happy ytd. The kind of feeling i got was totally overwhelming. It pierce thru my heart agn and agn. Yet sometimes, i really dont know whats right and whats wrong. I know i should stop it, but it's that never satisfying urge in me that made me more eager to prove myself. To keep pointing out faults, even the slightest, all these acts eventually leads to one main aim, just to get you to treat me better. I'm sorry.

Sometimes, i dont even know what i want. I guess i'm just like most of you out there, asking for more.
I dont really look at ur mistakes solemnly. But i dont really wish to acknowledge them to you. I dont wanna let you feel that it's enough, i want more from you, a lot more. I must have been too ambitious. Saying it here perhaps makes me feel better and hope you understand, i do appreciate you.

I really thank god for having you as part of my life. One thing i really like about you, which are totally different from other guys is that you dont curse and swear, you behave really like a civilised man in terms of ur attitude. I really like that. A guy in formal clothing, walking and speaking in a really mesmerising tone, you totally fit this role. Not any tom dick or harry, but a guy whom i really can be proud of with the character he carry.

I guess sorry would never be enough or it aint really making things work. Just wanna let you know, i do appreciate you. Whether it's ur fault or it isnt, dont feel that you giving in and not receiving. Well, i feel that way all the time. I guess some assurance can do it, can it?

Right now, dont get angry about the internet problems anymore baby, good times or bad times, it will soon be okay. Cheer up!

These words are really from the bottom of my heart. Spent a lot time tryna get this words nicely lay just for my special boy.


It's okay.
Let it faint.