Yesterday, Saturday, 14 January.
These few words kinda haven't came out from me yet, HAPPY 14th MONTHSARY BABY. It wasn't a pleasant day for us. I rmb the last two 14 we had was similarly not enjoyable. We fought and i complained about certain stuff.. I guess i ought to be contented with what i have instead of complaining. Hope the next 14 would be pleasant, it's a special 14 C:

Around the afternoon, headed to my dad's place with my mummy and the baby. Had steamboat with his family and it was awkward like always. I mean, i dont even know how am i suppose to address them so i just presented a nod and an, not-so-smile-smile.

The rest of the day is just.......


Today, Sunday, 15 January.
Woke up around 9 this morning. The rest of the day was..... Speechless

Argh. i know i should not have blogged today but i felt like i have got loads of burdens to unload from my chest. Sometimes i just dont know what went wrong with myself and that urge to release certain anger. Sometimes i just need to let you know how much i hate things that i dont wish there is a repetition. Sometimes i'm just sad, really sad and i want you to make me happy so i got to let you know i'm depressed, i'm desperate, i'm in need of ur affection, i yearn for those mushy lovey words, i want you to cheer me up by all means, i just need you there for me.

Perhaps i expressed things in a wrong way. At times, i do know it's my fault, my defence for myself would grew stronger instead of apologising though. Sorry, i'm really sorry. You dont have to apologise each time something went wrong, you got to tell me where did i went wrong in my thinkings and dont forgot to be nice, and i mean, nice.. heheheh

Hurtful words, insulting phrases and hating sentences, when people said it during a fight, do they really mean it or they're just tryna be aggresive? It pains my heart, my bleeding heart that was alrdy broken. Do you have anything to say to me?

Cheh, gonna get comments saying i'm emo. HELL NO. Emo at times, but happiness dont drift away from me that easily, LOSER.

K. I cant wait for CNY! I cant wait to put on the pretty lil blue dress from baby and to receive those red envelopes non-stop. Not to forget, CHINESE NEW YEAR GOODIES AND HOLIDAYS. One more week.

Ciaos, nights, sweet dreams for me, nightmares for you. xoxo


It comes by so swifty but it's invisible,
catch it.